Another pound down that is 3 pounds for last week....

Weight 101Kg Goal:70Kg Still need to loose: 31Kg

Weight loss is going well and I a very happy but I am getting obsessed with what to eat and I am being really strict with food.
Why do people feel they can talk about your weight as if you were not there? Visiting family at the week-end and somehow my weight loss become main topic of conversation. How did you lose it? What do you eat? How much have you lost? How much ore do you want to lose? It was excruciating I do not like the attention....even worst the comment she s being good she did not have a choccie biscuit!! How patronizing! Even if I was not trying to lose weight I would have not had the biscuit! Anyway am I being ungraceful? Should I just take the comments in the spirit they were intended? Bad workout this morning at the gym. PT says I just gave up maybe he has a point. Apparently I lack motivation and mental strength!! How do you keep going when you are tired?

Only one Pound!!!

Weight 102.5Kg Goal:70Kg Still need to loose: 32.5Kg

The good news is that I did the 5k outside in the race park, it took 46 minutes. The aim now is to do it under 45 minutes.....The not so good news is that I have only lost 1 pound this week. It is really getting me down. I have been very good with food especially when everyone around me were stuffing themselves! This is the hardest when I have to keep going and the results are not coming....

Exciting News....

I have done 5K this morning alone on the same park as the race. I was happy and relieved as after Friday I was really worried about not finishing it....
This morning was easy compared t0 Friday, the surface was alone easier on me, no mud, no slippery and no stones.... It took me under 45 mins which is what I want really for the day.
The best thing? How impressed DH was!!! He was sitting on a bench waiting for me and he was really impressed and almost surprised! I think up to today he never thought I could do it.....
There is actually a list of people that think I am not going to do it!! The only doubt I had was ob Friday when PT looked worried he has spent the last 2 years telling me I could do almost anything that seeing him wondering if I will finish scared the life out of me....He should be on my side.

We are avoiding talking about the ivf issues with DH but we need to start thinking about what to do next. Who said hiding under the duvet is not the best approach to life s problems?

I am going out tonight and I am wearing a knee length skirt....I have not done that for years...7-8 years to be precise...It feels great. There is one thing that is bugging me my best friend has not ever mentioned my weight loss!!! I avoid boring people and do not like talking about it..... I just want her to acknowledge it though!! 6 stones and not a word. Complete strangers have commented on it but not her....

The last question is why do people keep offering me chocolates or sweet bad things? In the last 5 days I have received: 2 boxes of choccies (both from friends and family), 12 Krispy Kreme (my favourite from best friend above), 1 Dark Kit Kat(KK favourite choccie from work colleague!) and 1 box of Belgian choccies!!!! I am into recycling so I f I give you some choccies be warned!!!

It is getting expensive!

I spent the day shopping and I still get a thrill when I fit into a size 18 so it ended up being very expensive. Funnily enough it is probably most women s nightmare to be a size 18 but after being a lot bigger it feels great...

I have put a bet with DH he needs to lose 10Kg and I need some motivation for the next stone so here it is: Whoever loses the weight firsts (Him 10Kg,Me 7Kg well it is easier for men...) gets £100. It is all meant in good spirit of course.

I went to the gym today again but I did take it easier especially as I am due again tomorrow with PT.



I have a moral dilemma: I have a friend who wants to do the 5Km with me, she just wants to walk the whole course.The issue is for me this is becoming a personal challenge I want to run at least part of it. She is a lot smaller than me but not very fit: I could do with the company but at the same time I want to do it at my pace. What shall I do?



Tomorrow we should get the confirmation that we are going ahead with the IUI. I am doing my best to distract myself and not think of the treatment or what we will do afterwards if t does not work.

No ivf again this time...

Unfortunately it looks like another ivf cycle that has to be abandoned due to poor response...Difficult to take in, we are reviewing our options at the moment....We are converting this cycle to an IUI.
On top of that although the food has been very good lately I have been spending time imagining all sorts of food I would like to have I am having a fixation on chips with lots of salt and vinegar.Of course the proper ones from the chippie and not the oven ones.... Also Krispy Kreme donuts I am spending a lot of time at work thinking about them........

Of course the worst possible time will be the 2 weeks after the iui waiting to see if it has worked.