6 Stones and 5 Km...

Weight 103.5Kg Goal:70Kg Still need to loose: 33.5Kg

I have done it I have run 5Km for the 2nd time in my life and this time in 42mins 39 sec, 2mins better than I did it in last. It was tough and after the first 2.5Km I just wanted to give up and go home but as always my PT would not have any of it... I do think that if it was not for the constant motivation, encouragement or plain annoying remarks of my PT I would have never made it so far: I have lost 6 stones, it has taken 2 years and really the biggest achievement is that I have not stopped I kept going. I had long periods where my weight stayed the same because my food was bad but I kept up the exercise and kept going...
I keep being asked if I am happy about losing the weight? Am I happy? Yes of course I am but I still have so much to lose that I just want to keep going. My absolutely biggest fear is that I will have a binge and then that develops into a days of appalling food then 2-3 days then what is the point it becomes a whole week of take aways.............so I am happy but I am also scared.
The funny thing is that people keep asking me for tips about how to lose weight in reality I am the last person you should ask about it yes I have lost 6 stones but it has taken 2 years...
Anyway I have to face another restaurant this evening with friends: why is my social life always linked with food?

Going to Rome....And Bad News

On the day we were flying for Rome we went to see Fertility Dr and apparently after all this time he decided ivf not for us....
So much heartache it felt like I could not breath when he was talking to us.
DH was struggling as well with the news. Anyway he suggested donor eggs overseas. Very difficult to understand his reasoning. I have only had 2 try at ivf both times treatment had to be abandoned as I did not produce enough eggs....
We had the feeling that he wanted to get ride of us we are polluting his stats, he was pushy towards us going overseas.
He reluctantly agreed to one last go at ivf with a different protocol.
We drove to the airport in complete silence so much to take in and some really difficult decisions ahead of us.....